Heterosexual Vacation

Hmm Last week i decided to go to one of my favorite str8 clubs in the city . its beginning to become more common for me to be in a str8 club then a gay club these days . anyhow the kind of str8 clubs i am into are usually some old school back packer type spots. This spot is one of my favorites. I decided to go with my brother who is my best freind and who i always have fun with when we go out. we are just on the same page and we know how to wild out for real, been that way since day one. Any how on this particular night we were having our fun drinking and what not . While chilling in the club a girl comes up to me and tells me that her cousins birthday was that day and that she thought i was hot and wanted to take a picture with me. So i was like cool i went over and damn was she fine. She was on a level i never could have gotten back in the day when i was trying to get with females.
Any way we chilled for awhile and the chick was loving me and for the moment i was intrigued plus i had a few drinks and my brother was eating it all up. I told him I messed with dudes about a year and a half ago and he always wants me to cross back over to his side. He really couldnt understand how i could pull such a fly girl . anyhow i chilled with home girl talked with her and all , then she dropped the bomb she was only 18 but whatever that bomb could never top mine. so i rolled with it and tried to play the mildly interested role and all that did was make her want me more.
well the night ended with her putting her number in my phone and her and i making out
hmmm
That shit was hot for real and she was able to get me turned on . and somehow i thought that function didnt work for me with women anymore but it did that day and im sure it would any other day
it all made me stop to think maybe i am more in the grey area but who cares i know what i go after on the regular and thats dudes. however this young girl made me think for a minute.
Long story short i never gave her the call because of a few reasons one she lives far away , two shes too young and three i beleive in karma and me playing around with homegirl would only come back and bite me in the ass.
she was sweet though and in a different world i would have liked to have chilled with her even though she was damn near jail bait.

two observations:
One may be thinking why is this post called heterosexual vacation. Well thats exactly what it felt like, it was a moment to be back in that world . where i could kiss a significant other in public , hold thier hand and just be with them with out that public scrutiny and fear attached to it . Shit for all i know thats what was really turning me on . damn it was nice if only for a little while. although i love who i am its moments like that that make me realize just how different i really am, or we really are . will i live to see the day where i will be able to express affection to my significant other in public , hell do i even want that. I dont even know if i would do it if it was ok , being that i am so brainwashed on the issue .

another observation i had was when my brother kept asking why she picked me (well besides the fact that im fly). i think it was my demeanor in the club. in a str8 club i am looking for no one really so as a result i get women who want to dance with me and all that shit , i do alot better in the str8 clubs these days . On the other hand my brother walks into a club searching. from the minute he comes in the door he is figuratively doing the "have you seen her" dance (hand in a salute position over your eye looking back and forth). hell i admit i have been guilty of this in gay clubs , and i have definently worked the room before (left my freinds where they stood to walk off alone and see who was in the club).
recently i have become a jaded mofo , so that also steers people away . but when i have my moments where im chilling with my boys or by myself just enjoying the music people approach me so i think i better go with that in the future because this is one dateless summer.