Gay Only

Damn I am tired of faking the funk
And I really do believe in the laws of attraction. How can I attract realness and authenticity to myself when I dont keep it real or authentic.At the end of the day a lie is a lie and being dishonest is being dishonest.
What brings this all to the surface, well im tired of trying to play it in the straight world. I have flaked on my homegirl two weeks in the row because I can't find a way to tell her I really do not want to go to straight clubs with her on the regular like we do sometimes. She is not as interested in rolling with me to a gay club. When I go to a straight club I feel like I am taken back to when I was in college and I was at those clubs and parties. The work straight men have to go through at a club for even the most broke down bitch is rediculous. I mean all these heffers be acting crazy. Plus I only prefer to do black clubs because to be honest the sisters know how to admire a nubian prince like myself. Any way I like to go to gay clubs I will admit. I like to dance with boys and I have fun feeling free to be and do me . I wish homegirl could understand. Gay only wouldnt be a bad idea. I mean there are some gay people who dont even have straight friends. Wow that is something that I could not imagine because most if not all of my friends are straight . And because of my field of work they are straight women. Those broads want to know way too much information and I'm tired of the lying and the double life living. It is very frustrating , if all my freinds were gay like other gay people do it wouldnt be an issue but I am way too outgoing to not get to know the peopel I am working around in any situation . The closer and closer I come to turning thirty I begin to understand people whose lives only revolve around the gay world.