The Freaks come out at night

So yeah If you rememebr I posted about the racy adam4adam pic. Finally after a week of putting dudes off I decided to meet two of them.Odly enough both latin dudes. now truth be told I have limited experience with latin dudes but when you throw up the racy pic mainly very local people hit you up and I live in the bronx.

The first dude we met up for a J/O session. Well the first thing I thought when I got there was damn hes kind of older looking then I thought but whatever. In all honesty it was hard for me to get into the groove of things ( couldnt get hard like I wanted to ) As we continued on I got into it , a little freaky but hay it wasn't a bad nut, I will go back again . Only thing I didn't like is it seemed like he lived in a maze/dungeon and I had backflashes of some geofrey dahmer shit while I was walking down there because truth be told I would not have even known how to get out of the damn place.

Second dude came over after I interrogated him online and all he wanted to do was give me head. Well we never even exchanged numbers he just called when he was close. He came through and might I say quite impressive job . NO number exchanged and I have no urge to see him again but its all good. I even stelth setting blocked him on yahoo it is what it is. Damn am I turning into the ho I understood earlier this summer . I dont know what im turning into but I know I like sexual contact and I'm tired of jerking off it aint the same, plus young sexy went awol (damn I would delete the account if he resurfaced .) As long as I keep it safe Im good right? (what about my heart , what about love, what about finding the one , am I done searching?)

VS. Game

So now I am playing the game of VS. with the dudes I am talking to
Example
Very Cute & crazy Vs. Average looking and Nice

Well truth be told average looking and nice can get me going sometimes but very sexy & crazy his sex appeal is on another level. Verysexy and Crazy though he seems to think we were in a realtionship before and I never got that memo but I follow along with his insanity and I think boy oh boy I dont know if I want that in my life. The sexual thing was fire from what I remember. Average looking and nice is new he adores me but so does Very cute and crazy.

Winner: Very good looking and Crazy
Explanation: I'm vain and the fool kept my attention very well and as long as I want to just be with him from day one I should be aight (lol that's the problem.)

Very sexy and Crazy Vs. Very sexy and Busy (I will just call them crazy and Buzy for short)

Buzy is some one that I have been knowing for years and we have had several off and on times when we are talking and when we arent. Busy knows me pretty well and I feel so comfortable around him. The last time I tried to pursue Busy he invited me to a function at his job after I stood there mingling waiting for him to be ready to leave I told him I would walk around the city for awhile and wait for him to meet me. Didn't happen he called me later and was like oh I was just pulled into a meeting. I was like what the fuck, he was always hard to get time alone with . If I was into waiting he would be worth waiting for.

Winner: Busy
Explanation: He could really be my heart he is all I would want in a dude I would never look elswhere if he could just pencil me in.


Young & sexy Vs Busy Vs Crazy

Young sexy is 21 and the shit. The level of intamacy is off the hook. We have been kicking it lately on a consistent basis. I haven't jonesed for a dudes body like this in a minute but he is young and with him comes all the bullshit that comes along with youngins. Right now his phone is off and I can't reach him and I been wanting him the past few days. He is an around the way type dude andhe lives real close. One thing is he has very little life experince and he still lives with his parents. I will say he is much more mature then any of the other youngins I have fucked with , he has a job or two and goes to school and is about to be somebody. I love his drive that shit turns me on.

Winner: A tie between Youngsexy and Busy
Explanation: Can't decide between the two because either I could work with but would I be completely fulfilled.

I think I better continue looking

A little research

So I am a long time user of adam4adam. Truth be told I hardly ever admit that I use it . And when I meet a good boy out side of the net, I dread them ever finding out I even have an account. But at the end of the day majority of the people in the club and those you meet elsewhere are on adam. It is almost like a gay myspace, well myspace already has its gay connection . Adam Is like a gay xrated myspace. Any how I have met quite a few characters off of adam none of which have really materialized into anything serious, but it is what .

I have always been so curious about who are the actual faces behind the dick and ass pics on adam. I mean I posted about it this summer how I thought it was somewhat liberating to be a proud ho, If you are tired of the dating bullshit. Me and my curious self I decided to post a racy picture on adam last week. Now, my usual acount on adam gets hit up once in awhile. When I change the picture or are on in the daytime I get more hits but I can go for long times periods with very little messages . Oh yeah it's only a face pic and thats all because I have something against showing all my good stuff online well at least on adam anyway.

Well strictly for research purposes did I post this racy pic . And my pc is ringin off the hook everytime I log on. Now half of the people are nasty ass freak hoes. But a good percentage of them look good. I mean what started off as research has become my main name I have been logging in on this week. Now one nudie pick does not a ho make. I havent met anyone yet but I think I am going to. I am telling them I only want to jerk off because I am trying to stay a good boy . One dude I talked to on the phone acts as if sex is so far off while another wants it right away , so that pretty much my usual experiences with adam. But damn considering my previous blog on hoes is this a self fulfilling prophesy, I dont know but I will keep you posted.

In small doses please

In college a friend of mine and I had this philosophy about small doses. It was our personal oppinions that there were some people in your life that are friends but you can only stand them in small doses. You may love them to death but they have a limit. Well truth be told you love them but from a distance. They are nice people but they have soething about there personality that irritates you till no end but it takes sometime for it to hit you.

Well guys my only gay friend here in NYC is some one I like only in small doses. He is the only friend I have like that everyone else I can see when ever but him once I have been around him past 6 consecutive hours or so I'm already gathering my things for an abrupt depparture.In the past year I would say that we have gotten alot closser since most of my gay freinds here have moved away or been cut off.

He and I have travelled before . I rememebr the first time we traveled to Chicago and he and my good freind Detroit were bumping heads rediculously. Actually Small doses and I were bumping heads also . I was almost sure when we made it back to NYC we would never be friends again. He was just freeaking obnoxious, going out of his way to be an asshole to some one he didnt even know. After that trip I vowed never to bring him around another one of my friends again . I really felt responsible for him almost ruing Detroit's time. Any how we traveled together again after that and well he always was consistent as far as annoying the hell out of me. And I would always ditch him for hours on trips. Then I just said fuck it dont need to do that anymore. I mean If we were locked up in jail cell together I swear it would take me only a few days before I shanked him. So if I feel so passionately on how annoying this person is to me why still be friends.

I think sometimes my opinion on friends and relationships is weird. I must be honest, the way I grew up plays alot into it. Growing up I had a daddy that just up and one day decided he didnt want to be bothered with me anymore. To me thats worse then having the whole "I never met my father " situation. Outside of that we moved around alot so I started new school maybe three times in my younger life and I was a fat kid so it was always hard for me to make new friends. Sometimes when I did make friends they always would play me out when they were vying for the cool kids attention. So yeah I have some serious abandonment and detachment issues. I also dont always hold my friends to the high standard they should have to be held to. If my friends fuck up and prove themselves to not be on my level they should be cut off.

Back to small doses.... So He recently wanted to stay at my apartment for the weekend. I thought to myself oh no I dont know if I can take that it would be too long and my weekends are like gold . The past few weekends have been all about resting and relaxing I am so tired I sleep 10 hours on saturday and sunday and I love it I'm beginning to think sleep is almost as good as Absolut( ooh that sounds alcoholic). Now the past few weeks he has been asking to come over to my place to take a shower because his water went cold( huh, what, when my water goes cold I just hop my humble ass in the shower and deal with it or if its too cold I white boy shower it and call it a day). Each time he has asked I just basically become really inconsistent and don't respond. I know if he comes to take a shower he will spend the night and thats way past my 6 hour limit. So when he asked about the weekend I just never responded. He then sent me a text the next day saying thanks for not responding and I haven't responded since.

It's been a week now and I must say I dont miss him at all . If anything he always got more out of our friendship then I did. I would book the trip for us, I would let him come shower here, I would read his papers for school, I would give him that 30 bucks so he could make it till pay day, I would even buy him a drink at the club and what did I ever get out of it. Even when I gave him money I had to ask for it back and thats not a freind, if you owe me money you need to give it back to me I shouldn't have to aks you for it. If you are a freinds and I help you out be thankful find ways to reciprocate even though I may not need something from you, isn't that the way friendships work small doses or not.

So will I call, I dont know . I bet he is pissed off at me but in all honesty he has no right to be. Even though I like him only in small doses I feel as though I like him even better in no doses, but I dont want another enemy why can't I end things with friends and lovers amicably.