I must like him

Hmmm
Well we were supposed to go out today but my dumb ass I got drunk last night and forgot to call and I slept through his calling me today. I left him a message about 3 hours ago and text him and all I am thinking right now is he is upset with me and doesnt want to call me back. Fuck, I must like him because I care. Damn I hope he calls I think we may be able to have something special one day as long as he takes sometime to understand how I work and that I am giving some effort in getting to know him I'm just bad at dating and getting to know some one. Tecnically I'm still in my teenage stages of the lifestyle. Damn I hope he calls.

Is there something better out there

Hmmm
This I think is the main issues that has kept me single for going on 4 years now. So many times now I can look back at some good guys I let go by because I was looking for something better out there. If I had sat down for a minute and chilled with certain cats for a minute I would have realised I had better and what was out there may have looked better if I ever saw it but what looks great usually isn't to good for me.
I can always be one to say there is nothing out there but I can sit here and count numerous times when I had a good man standing in front of me just wanting to have some focus from me and I was blowing off spending time with him because I was in a search for something better. Usually I never met better and he eventually goes away and finds a boyfriend and we may become friends afterward and I am aptly informed on how great things are going while so called better is long gone and I realise the person I let go was better much better then what was out there. So if their is anyone to blame for my long standing single hood it is me. Then again I guess it's a learning process. If I hadn't loss out so often would I really know what to want right now.

A Date with my DVR

Hmmm well lately I have been trying to date and dating is some real shit up in NYC. I mean I went on two dates this week. The first one was with a dude I met in the summer whom I just am going on the second date with in November, hmm go figure. Any how it was an at home date and I must be honest it was an experience. It opened my mind up to some new realities. One is I don't like freaks . I will admit it I am an anti-freak. The things they do are nasty and nasty is how people catch diseases and some shit is just unsanitary, ilk I wont do it, not interested. I will be first in line for the test trials for the body condom (I hope that the only wholes in it are for the nostrils.) Anyway another reality was I really realize how I don't like to be touched illlll I wanted to punch dude in the face because I told him to stop and he wouldn't motherfucker stop. Stop means stop you don't have the right to rape my skin.

Date number 2 hmmm met him after work he was aight. I don't know that I feel tingly, the tingly factor is on 0. When I met him though the tingly was off the chain but I had had a few drinks in me and there was some close dancing and a different look. People look so different in the day light and in work clothes.Plus he had on a trench coat and that always makes me think that the person is a part time flasher. But he is a nice dude and maybe the tingly will return. Only problem is he is friends with one of my Arch Nemisi but whatever we will see. Shit why does it make a difference we hardly know each other.

Anyhow the best date I had this week was with my dvr. I am feeling so Miranda Hobbs right now but I just love my dvr and don't know how I got along with out it. It only lets me down every now and then ( when a show leaks over past the record time and I don't get the ending or to see what is going to happen the next week.) My DVR dates usually include some of my favorites The Office , Earl, Oprah, Ugly Betty, Cheaters and the list goes on. My Dvr even gives me the tinglys sober , the black dude on 6 degrees yummy ( looks like the show will probably be canceled but I like it a lot)