In the moment

Wow I can't believe it has been so long since I blogged WTF.
Well so much was going on in the month of December I am going to have to recap in a different post because it was a month of revelations.

Anyhow it is January 27 and we are almost one month down in the year of 2008. When I checked out all the other blogs at the beginning of the year people were reviewing thier years , what they learned and New Years resolutions. In all honesty when I though back on 2007 I had nothing I felt worth reviewing and nothing to write a resolution about at all. 2007 was a year of half happiness and half insanity. I dont want to review I want to move forward I dont want to New Year resolution because I dont believe in that shit, if you dont like what's going on change it now . Fuck a January 1st, change that shit on April 3rd if it needs to be changed.

So what have I been up to
Well last weekend I was out in Atl and I must say it was quite a great time. I loved it for the most part eventhough I fell ass first into a puddle one night with my club outfit on and had to go back to the hotel and change, I still had fun that night. I had fun all the nights I was in Atl and the one thing I noticed when I landed back in NYC was that it was time for some drastic change. Truth be told I hate the Bronx. NYC is not the place for people like me anymore. I do pay a certain price almost for doing noble work . I am a school teacher and on one hand while I am planting seeds and giving back on a daily basis that doesn't translate to being financially stable. I bust my ass like none other and still all I have to show for it is my dumpy ass basment apartment in the bronx. I think its time to move up on out of the basement literally and figuratively. (That's not a resolution thats a plan that is being put into action.)

Another major development
I erased all my online dating accounts. For New Years I was in DC. I had an ok time but I had decided that it would be my last weekend on the sites. I had come to review every person I had met on those sites and couldn't think of one that was worthy of my time. For some reason also the boys were getting younger. Younger and just a waiste of time . In many aspects reminding me of myself when I first started out. I was flaky as hell, I dont want that at all in my life. I also dont want to waste my life's time looking at pictures, sending messages and checking profiles. Another factor was, shit I have no problem meeting people when I am out . And making meeting people in person my main mode of dating changes the game and forces me to be on point with mine. It's been almost a month since being on adam and I must admit I don't really miss it . I almost tried to rejoin BGC while in atl because I was bored one day and could only imagine what I would be getting into if I had an account. But for some reason I kept getting kicked out of adding an account. Anyway I went out that night and was a social butterfly as usual and relized again how much I didnt need the sites .

Biggest Revelation

I have to be myself people are attracted to that, not a made up image and profile on Adam but the real Kindacleva that I have always been .