Hmmm (I'm making a non love and relationship type post hold your breath)
I can't say how passionate I am about this word being taken from the mouth of people in general. As African-Americans we have allowed ourselves to really buy into one of the oldest tricks in the book. Our minds have been so brainwashed and trained that we believe that we can turn one of the most hurtful terms in our existence into a term of endearment. After visiting the abolish the n word website (www.abolishthenword.com) a few months ago I was totally changed. I remember how it would sting my ears when I heard a non-black person using this word as a term of endearment. When I was in college I spent so much time schooling white Minnesota mofos. In some cases people don't mean much by it but the word being said in my presence stings my ears . I have been teaching for 5 years now and have been teaching my students how ignorant it sounds, at the end of the day I get them to not say it around me but when they go home and hear it 24/7 my explanation as to why not to say it falls on deaf ears.
Black brothers and sister is it so serious. Is it such a necessity to use this harmful word. Is it necessary to disrespect the lineage from which you come to just be able to use a word. I don't even accept the Chris Rock usage of the word ( there are black people and N*****). I call ignorant people what they are which is ignorant I do not call them the name that whitey used to sell us on the auction block, or the name whitey called us when he was burning us as we hung from a tree choking with our genitals stuffed in our mouths while the whole town watched this heartless and inhumane spectacle. So remember every time you say the word you are tying the nuse around your own ignorant ass neck and doing just what whitey wants us to do and that's buy into the way he has decided we should see ourselves. He doesn't have to call us ignorant we call ourselves ignorant everyday in such an endearing way.
Monday, September 18, 2006
Saturday, September 09, 2006
Atl Black Gay pride
Wow what a way to end the summer I'll run it down day by day
Friday..
Rushed out of work after a long ass stressful day jumped on the plane , had a little cough but I was like fuck won't let that affect the fun. Got to the atl and something about being in atl always calms me , well I guess something about being anywhere that's not NYC that calms me. Anyhow we got in town mad late so we literally got to the hotel showered and headed off to the club . We made sure we got passes to all the lions den shit and we stayed in there host hotel which was hot. The club that night hmmm was a little weak but the fun was had when we got back to the hotel and in the let out of 708. I saw this dude I'm feeling in atl who I affectionately consider my atl boyfriend (although he is not my b.f. or any way near being my b.f.). After chilling in the let out we headed back to the hotel. In my flirtatious mode I started talking to this dude in the hallway he was cute he told us to come back to his room and we did out of sheer curiosity. Before we knocked on the door we heard some strange voices and accents and such anyhow I knocked anyway and they let us in. Come to find out they were Ethiopian, never met an Ethiopian before and here I was sitting with 4 gay Ethiopians . The ring leader who I met in the hall was quite funny and ready , he kept turning out the lights but we wasn't trying to get down with that but they were very interesting.
Saturday.....
Woke up late but we headed out hit upthe mall and the pool party where I was to find my LA boyfriend (not my bf at all but we like each other and had a beautiful time when we met in Chicago about a year ago). The issue we had at that moment was hmmm he is crazy about me and I was not feeling the same about him a year later he still gives me a little bit of the tingleys, but he needs to put a filter on his mouth. I hate when people haven't learned that there are things you say and don't say. Any how with both dudes there I knew at some point I would have to choose one or the other to chill with because the itinerary in atl left little time to chill with both . So the club that night was at the convention center which was huge and dudes really wasn't vibing much due to all that space. Every one was in their little click doing there own thing but it was cool I enjoyed chilling with my friends . At some point during this day we had picked up a hanger on in the hotel. Basically I had seen him the night before and he noticed me showing my boy his ass so we started talking and he came to visit our room on Saturday and just wouldn't leave he went with us to the club and even spent the night in the hotel with us because his boy was getting busy in his room. Anyhow best believe I squeezed the booty but nothing too serious went down plus when he left. I was like its all good wont be seeing him anymore he wore out his welcome but he was a youngin and I guess his peoples was wack or whatever.
Sunday.......
Began to realize this shit is about to be over and started getting sad but I met up with one of my boys from NYC and my boy I was there with and we had so much fun that day at Piedmont park. The club that night was cool, funny how many NYC people I saw out there. Saw LA boyfriend there he was still talking the same ol bullshit , he basically wanted me to ditch my people and ride off into the sunset with him and I couldn't do that I'm not that type of person . The difference was atl boyfriend understood that. LA boyfriend was really losing me and in a way he was calling a me a slut on the sly and I wasn't feeling that and pretty much the negative energy got him the cut ( any negative mofos in my life they get the cut with the quickness now adays don't want it don't need it.)
Monday...
It was time to leave but before I left I spent time with my atl boyfriend ahhhhh how sweet we went out to lunch and we vibe well . I think I want to move to atl if not for good then just for a few years . Not for dude though but just because I need a change of pace so I guess I will spend the next few months trying to figure that out.
General observations.....
So much ass, I mean everyone's ass was out it was like booty city it was great, I renamed the city Asslanta.
whuts up with that cheerleading step team thing that they do in atl , what's that whole scene about ?
I was wondering is there a way to chill with your entourage and still look like you are available because the entourage turns so many people away.
what's the purpose of pride celebrations?
I will say that what I get out of it is like its this one weekend where I can be out of the city and away and feel like its ok to be me and at the same time see other people like me. I get off on seeing the variety and the similarities that let me know while on my day to day I feel alone but in reality there are more like me out there. I know some people do prides to hook up and bust as many nuts as possible but I'm not on that kick I don't need to go away to bust random nuts.
Friday..
Rushed out of work after a long ass stressful day jumped on the plane , had a little cough but I was like fuck won't let that affect the fun. Got to the atl and something about being in atl always calms me , well I guess something about being anywhere that's not NYC that calms me. Anyhow we got in town mad late so we literally got to the hotel showered and headed off to the club . We made sure we got passes to all the lions den shit and we stayed in there host hotel which was hot. The club that night hmmm was a little weak but the fun was had when we got back to the hotel and in the let out of 708. I saw this dude I'm feeling in atl who I affectionately consider my atl boyfriend (although he is not my b.f. or any way near being my b.f.). After chilling in the let out we headed back to the hotel. In my flirtatious mode I started talking to this dude in the hallway he was cute he told us to come back to his room and we did out of sheer curiosity. Before we knocked on the door we heard some strange voices and accents and such anyhow I knocked anyway and they let us in. Come to find out they were Ethiopian, never met an Ethiopian before and here I was sitting with 4 gay Ethiopians . The ring leader who I met in the hall was quite funny and ready , he kept turning out the lights but we wasn't trying to get down with that but they were very interesting.
Saturday.....
Woke up late but we headed out hit upthe mall and the pool party where I was to find my LA boyfriend (not my bf at all but we like each other and had a beautiful time when we met in Chicago about a year ago). The issue we had at that moment was hmmm he is crazy about me and I was not feeling the same about him a year later he still gives me a little bit of the tingleys, but he needs to put a filter on his mouth. I hate when people haven't learned that there are things you say and don't say. Any how with both dudes there I knew at some point I would have to choose one or the other to chill with because the itinerary in atl left little time to chill with both . So the club that night was at the convention center which was huge and dudes really wasn't vibing much due to all that space. Every one was in their little click doing there own thing but it was cool I enjoyed chilling with my friends . At some point during this day we had picked up a hanger on in the hotel. Basically I had seen him the night before and he noticed me showing my boy his ass so we started talking and he came to visit our room on Saturday and just wouldn't leave he went with us to the club and even spent the night in the hotel with us because his boy was getting busy in his room. Anyhow best believe I squeezed the booty but nothing too serious went down plus when he left. I was like its all good wont be seeing him anymore he wore out his welcome but he was a youngin and I guess his peoples was wack or whatever.
Sunday.......
Began to realize this shit is about to be over and started getting sad but I met up with one of my boys from NYC and my boy I was there with and we had so much fun that day at Piedmont park. The club that night was cool, funny how many NYC people I saw out there. Saw LA boyfriend there he was still talking the same ol bullshit , he basically wanted me to ditch my people and ride off into the sunset with him and I couldn't do that I'm not that type of person . The difference was atl boyfriend understood that. LA boyfriend was really losing me and in a way he was calling a me a slut on the sly and I wasn't feeling that and pretty much the negative energy got him the cut ( any negative mofos in my life they get the cut with the quickness now adays don't want it don't need it.)
Monday...
It was time to leave but before I left I spent time with my atl boyfriend ahhhhh how sweet we went out to lunch and we vibe well . I think I want to move to atl if not for good then just for a few years . Not for dude though but just because I need a change of pace so I guess I will spend the next few months trying to figure that out.
General observations.....
So much ass, I mean everyone's ass was out it was like booty city it was great, I renamed the city Asslanta.
whuts up with that cheerleading step team thing that they do in atl , what's that whole scene about ?
I was wondering is there a way to chill with your entourage and still look like you are available because the entourage turns so many people away.
what's the purpose of pride celebrations?
I will say that what I get out of it is like its this one weekend where I can be out of the city and away and feel like its ok to be me and at the same time see other people like me. I get off on seeing the variety and the similarities that let me know while on my day to day I feel alone but in reality there are more like me out there. I know some people do prides to hook up and bust as many nuts as possible but I'm not on that kick I don't need to go away to bust random nuts.
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