The Thickness

Oh damn its that time of year again , the weather is changing , my birthday has passed and I am so horny. and the worse part is that new york winters are so dull that the feeling of spring just lights up my life.The leaves come back. The grass grows back . i start wearing bright colors and all that shit . and most importantly my sex drive comes back. just a ride on the two train is enough. in my most innocent moment im just chilling admiring a dudes beauty and in my most raunchy i am staring at him thinking damn he is thick and sexy and i wonder what he would look like with his legs up in the air. this brings me to the title of the post. thickness. well i will say the last guy i had sex with had the thickness. something new for me . i am used to only sexing skinny dudes but this dude had an ass and all. now i did have one other guy who was similar but he had other issues. but after the last thickness i had i am changing. now not to say i will never fuck with a skinny dude but im thinking damn cant imagine all the thickness i missed out on. in my recent trip to betroit a few days ago i met one of the sexy dudes ever over there. one of the things i could remember him saying as we danced was something to the affect of him being fat. shocking to me but he was just a little thick and it was beyond sexy to me. i dont know what it is but i am one who is always down for what everyone else is not into. and its so easy to find some muscular abs and pecks in the gay scene it is honestly getting cliche and its boring. i like to undress a dude and see something i never saw before or feel as though they are different.. anyhow dude in detroit i felt like he was adhearing to the gay concept of weight . for example in my opinion gay people feel that if you do not have a six pack you are fat . period point blank. and if you consider yourself thick then you are definently fat. now to me dude was only about 10 pounds overweight maybe but that ten pounds hit him in all the right places. i have been a person who had weight issues in the past and the gay standard didnt help . for a good few years i got caught up in it until i woke up one day and said "wait when the fuck did i care what some one thought of me, i know im as fly as they come ( and its not just looks but i am also easy on the eyes)" i mean compared ot the str8 world were a size 38 is the average , i would say the gay world average is a 32. this is interesting because i was looking at pictures of myself from a few months ago and i was like damn who is this in the picture, i never want to look this small its just not me, there was nothing really wrong with my thickness or anyone elses for that matter.